Murphy and me

Murphys law in my life - Not only my astrologers , numerologosts , palmists, coffee cup readers and tarot card readers have got their calculations wrong on me , I always had a doubt though that my teachers too got them wrong on my mark sheet, but now even the blogspot refuses my posts so many times - that’s why I maintain such good frequency of posts.



Actually even now as i started on my path to achieve moh maya(quite normal to do in my age group i guess), moh maaya decided to take its own path, maaya always went to my neighbors and till now moh makes me run away. Anyways since all concreting is happening only in the woods nothing is concretizing in my life with time vaporizing and emotions torture-rising and my thoughts for now conceding, let me try and post this off before murphy strikes again !!!!

m a material gurl

It must have been an achievement to be remembered by people even after generations. Was thinking how hard we try these days to earn name and fame. Tomorrow it will all be over and today is gone in achieving that. Heard soul is selfish, might as well nourish it. Ofcourse material pleasures are fun in themselves, but seriously how can they match the comfort of someone giving you a big hug, or smiling at you when you are low or just pick up your call whenever you call.It makes no difference to the world but all the difference to you.And to you you should matter.

settled illusion

Its quite an unsettling feeling. May be writing it will help ease me a bit. feel time is just fleeting away and am not able to capture anything. I am still waiting, waiting for the same things as I ever was. Will I always be waiting, I don’t want to. I close my eyes I see, like in movies, the whole world running past me, whereas I am still there. Sometimes my mind rushes ahead of me and all I want is to tell it to stop. Its life that I am scared of wasting may be, may be not making enough mistakes, mistakes that would teach, teach to live free, free from fear , fear of the unknown, unknown what is it?





I don’t want the illusion of happiness, which I am scared am sinking into, illusion of higher state of life or illusion of achievements. Its not just the vastness but the deepness am not aware of. I am missing some essence of life and there is more that I seek. My mind is not ready to accept and my heart does not feel the freedom. How do I get connected, connected to the search, search to be one, one with one and all, to feel the freedom and to follow my heart.

Away - Our Way

Decided ! - 14 th Jan / Big Banyan tree, we will be back by evening.
13th evening - Vivek - i m not sure -but 90 % confirmed.

Tanu - Vivek , u better &%^$@# confirm...
Vivek 9- Ok we are going, Wake me at 5.30
Confirm Dimple - 9.30 PM(8.30 - 9.30- u cant disturb the time table queen)
Confirm Snigdha - 10 PM

ringing vivek from 5.30 - gets up at 6.45
Finally we(Dimple, Vivek, Tanu, Sinigdha, Auntys breakfast) all leave KDP at 08:10
in our "little Red Bull"

We see dimples office, Harishs aunts restaurant,
Kripas office, AOl office, Siddharths house,Divyas house...
ooops which is the way to Mysore Road....

After a lot many straights, lefts , and dead ends - we reach Mysore Road
Lovely road , and now we miss the right to Banyan Tree
(Dimple was trying to hit 100 on her speedometer)

The whole trip was drive and discover - the roads, the trees ,the mountains,
Dimples and Snigdhas love for picturesque dance poses, Uppis (Ruppis) Resort,the music in each of our CDs, Pen drives, Radios and voices,
A super expensive Coffe stall, and the BIg Banyan Tree afterall, senseless conversations, some dam, some camp, some Durg,Viveks phobia of beaked animals(ducks), bangalore roads,loads of relaxed air, great company of friends and a sense of freedom !!!